I am TOTALLY excited right now,and the way I say that, you would think I have won an award for actress of the year, or cracked the unwritten code of the dos and dont's of relationships... (I'm sorry we still have to work on that one.) BUT what I am excited about, is this song.... yes, i get excited over songs!
But whatever, right now i am in love with it, and i wanted to share it, just to allow you guys to fall in love with it as well.... :)
Avalanche- Marie Digby
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
study time
My study patterns are weird, one day I want absolute silence and the next I need some music in my ears. today is that music day
So I created a play list, this is my study play list for today.
Alicia Keys- Try Sleeping With a Broken Heart
Brandy- Causualties
Jay Sean ft Sean Paul & Lil Jon Do You- Remember
Jordin Sparks- Over You
Michelle Williams- I am With You
Snoop Dogg ft The Dream- Gangsta Luv
Tpain- Drop It
Usher- More
Ready... Set... Study!!!
So I created a play list, this is my study play list for today.
study Play list
Alicia Keys- Try Sleeping With a Broken Heart
Brandy- Causualties
Jay Sean ft Sean Paul & Lil Jon Do You- Remember
Jordin Sparks- Over You
Michelle Williams- I am With You
Snoop Dogg ft The Dream- Gangsta Luv
Tpain- Drop It
Usher- More
Ready... Set... Study!!!
Monday, November 9, 2009
three words.
My lame attempt at story writing. enjoy.
Three words
It all started and ended with a phone call.....
Then
The phone begun to ring, it was him. I knew it was, how else could you explain my racing heart. I had imagined this day for two months now, and even though he only learnt my name two days ago, I could not help but be excited. finally.
"hello?" i said into the phone
"hi, Jenny?" he replied
"uh, yes who is this?"
"its Troy"
"oh hi Troy"
"hi, umm so, when did you want to work on that science project?"
"umm, well, i am free any time"
"really? uh, how about tomorrow morning?
"oh, ok sure. tomorrow is good."
"ok great. see you tomorrow then."
"ok"
"bye"
"bye"
click.
We begun to date two weeks later, i was 13 he was 15 and even though it took a science project to get him to notice me I could not have been happier. We did everything together, he was my best friend, he knew things about me that not even my closest friends knew, and this is where the but comes in, there was something missing. I felt it but I did not know how to explain it, he did and said everything that I wanted, but one thing was always uncertain, how he felt about me... I never knew. Two months, five months, seven months.... nothing....
Shortly after that he moved away, he said it would only be for a year, but I knew it could not work, we begun to fight a lot, mainly because I felt like I was the only one putting my all into the relationship, and he never understood it, but how could he, how could I tell him that I am mad because he refuses to tell me how he feels, how could I tell him that I am mad because I love him? so.... it was over, Troy Martin and I were over. Heartbroken I had to move on, just like he had.
I hated losing things, and not knowing where to find them. That day, 5th June 1985 I had lost my good luck charm, a green pebble, my mother had given it to me when I was five and scared of going to the dentist. Ever since then every time I felt I needed luck it was there with me, and now when I had the worst history exam coming up I could not find it. I tore my room apart, I had to find it. Looking in my desk drawer at the very end I came across a a bunch of papers tied around in an elastic band, papers I had never seen and never recalled putting there. At first I paid no mind, I had a mission in mind but a second look made me stop and investigate.
I removed the elastic band and what i saw made me cry, there was no mistaking his handwriting, after all we did a science project together, we studied maths a million times together, we played x and o's many times in detention. it was Troys.... and he said it.
10th October I love you Jenny
17th October I love you
31 October I love you Jen
6th November I LOVE YOU
8th November Troy Loves you
12th November I love you so much
15th December I... love... you
25th December I LOVE YOU JEN
28th December iiiiiiii lllllllllllooooooooovvvvvvveeeeee yyyyyooooooouuuuu
21st January I love you
14th February J'Taime
23rd February i love yooooooou
13th March ME LOVE YOU
25th March Jen.. I love you ok?
20th April (the day he left) I will always love you
He said it. He said those three words.
I could not get to the phone any faster, I dailed the number I knew so well, and waited to hear the voice I missed so much.
"hello?" he said
"I love you too" I replied
Why he did not tell me to my face I never knew, but i knew he loved me! and I love him too.
Now
I am twenty five now, and i will never forget that time of my life, I never did find that green pebble, but after that it did not matter, i had found a new good luck charm. Just then my husband walked in, i smiled. Troy Martin was my best friend and the best Husband in the world.
Three words
It all started and ended with a phone call.....
Then
The phone begun to ring, it was him. I knew it was, how else could you explain my racing heart. I had imagined this day for two months now, and even though he only learnt my name two days ago, I could not help but be excited. finally.
"hello?" i said into the phone
"hi, Jenny?" he replied
"uh, yes who is this?"
"its Troy"
"oh hi Troy"
"hi, umm so, when did you want to work on that science project?"
"umm, well, i am free any time"
"really? uh, how about tomorrow morning?
"oh, ok sure. tomorrow is good."
"ok great. see you tomorrow then."
"ok"
"bye"
"bye"
click.
We begun to date two weeks later, i was 13 he was 15 and even though it took a science project to get him to notice me I could not have been happier. We did everything together, he was my best friend, he knew things about me that not even my closest friends knew, and this is where the but comes in, there was something missing. I felt it but I did not know how to explain it, he did and said everything that I wanted, but one thing was always uncertain, how he felt about me... I never knew. Two months, five months, seven months.... nothing....
Shortly after that he moved away, he said it would only be for a year, but I knew it could not work, we begun to fight a lot, mainly because I felt like I was the only one putting my all into the relationship, and he never understood it, but how could he, how could I tell him that I am mad because he refuses to tell me how he feels, how could I tell him that I am mad because I love him? so.... it was over, Troy Martin and I were over. Heartbroken I had to move on, just like he had.
I hated losing things, and not knowing where to find them. That day, 5th June 1985 I had lost my good luck charm, a green pebble, my mother had given it to me when I was five and scared of going to the dentist. Ever since then every time I felt I needed luck it was there with me, and now when I had the worst history exam coming up I could not find it. I tore my room apart, I had to find it. Looking in my desk drawer at the very end I came across a a bunch of papers tied around in an elastic band, papers I had never seen and never recalled putting there. At first I paid no mind, I had a mission in mind but a second look made me stop and investigate.
I removed the elastic band and what i saw made me cry, there was no mistaking his handwriting, after all we did a science project together, we studied maths a million times together, we played x and o's many times in detention. it was Troys.... and he said it.
10th October I love you Jenny
17th October I love you
31 October I love you Jen
6th November I LOVE YOU
8th November Troy Loves you
12th November I love you so much
15th December I... love... you
25th December I LOVE YOU JEN
28th December iiiiiiii lllllllllllooooooooovvvvvvveeeeee yyyyyooooooouuuuu
21st January I love you
14th February J'Taime
23rd February i love yooooooou
13th March ME LOVE YOU
25th March Jen.. I love you ok?
20th April (the day he left) I will always love you
He said it. He said those three words.
I could not get to the phone any faster, I dailed the number I knew so well, and waited to hear the voice I missed so much.
"hello?" he said
"I love you too" I replied
Why he did not tell me to my face I never knew, but i knew he loved me! and I love him too.
Now
Thursday, November 5, 2009
dedicated to you
I never knew him, in fact i still don't know him, all I know is his name. Ponjee.
I lie, that's not all I know, I know that he was a student at Monash University, that makes him one of us, one of me... and we lost him.
He went missing a couple of days ago and ever since then i couldnt wrap my head around it, i can ONLY imagine what those who knew him were feeling. To make it worse, we find out that he has passed away.....
Its at times like this that you realise that life is short, one day you're here and the next..... We really are not in control of everything...
To me death is a very scary concept, its in fact the thing that i am most afraid of, and i guess maybe its a blessing in disguise that we don't really know when its going to happen, because then how would we really live... i mean really live! I dont know but, i would like to think that Ponjee lived, and even though death brings on the worst feelings, its his life we should be celebrating.
This is my dedication to him, although I never knew him.
RIP Ponjee.
I lie, that's not all I know, I know that he was a student at Monash University, that makes him one of us, one of me... and we lost him.
He went missing a couple of days ago and ever since then i couldnt wrap my head around it, i can ONLY imagine what those who knew him were feeling. To make it worse, we find out that he has passed away.....
Its at times like this that you realise that life is short, one day you're here and the next..... We really are not in control of everything...
To me death is a very scary concept, its in fact the thing that i am most afraid of, and i guess maybe its a blessing in disguise that we don't really know when its going to happen, because then how would we really live... i mean really live! I dont know but, i would like to think that Ponjee lived, and even though death brings on the worst feelings, its his life we should be celebrating.
This is my dedication to him, although I never knew him.
RIP Ponjee.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Life instructions
Life is not always that simple, that's a given. But its not so often that we actually just take a second to think about it, you will be surprised to find that it can be simple, all we need are just a few life instructions.
easy aint it? I thought so.
easy aint it? I thought so.
Rule # 1- Have fun: I have realised that every time i am having fun I tend to forget, if not on purpose, the problems i have in my life. yes it does not take the problems away, but at least I don't spend most of my time burying myself in problems, that I may or may not be able to fix at that given time. Having fun is a stress relief in an odd sense. DO WHAT YOU LIKE DOING! drawing, writing, partying, kissing, dancing.... just have fun.
Rule # 2- Do not hurt people: lying, cheating, stealing, killing, mocking = NO NO.
Rule # 3- Do not accept defeat: when something goes wrong, most of us are so quick to give up, like 'no that's not for me', BUT who told you that? life is not easy (kinda going against what the whole point of this blog is, but for GOOD reason) when life throws you lemons make lemonade, make the best out of every situation! our parents tell us this all the time, and even the celebrities we look up to, take for example Aaliyah she said in one of her songs "if at first you don't succeed, dust yourself off and try again" and then we have Nas, who told us "I know I can, be what i wanna be, if i work hard at it, i can be what i wanna be", we can not have let them sing those songs for nothing!
Rule # 4- Strive to be happy: the word that caught me here was strive! definition: To make efforts; to use exertions; to endeavor with earnestness; to labor hard. [1913 Webster]
happiness is not handed out on a sliver platter, we need to go out there and make our own happiness, and because the world is full of opposing forces, that is, life/death, love/hate and so on, it is not easy but if if ever you find it difficult, refer back to rule # 3... do not accept defeat, you CAN be happy and you MUST be happy!
HDDS people!
Sunday, November 1, 2009
fashion passion
Being a girl, there are many things that define me, besides boys and parties one of them is FASHION. By define, i do not mean, i am who i am because of fashion, but rather i am fashion..!
Even though "i am fashion", i am not at either extremes, you can call me the 'in between girl', i am not up to date with the latest fashion and on the other hand i am not clueless about fashion, i am just in between. give me something that looks nice, and i will wear it. :)
Any way, i have a friend that is about to launch her own fashion line in December, (its drive like that, that keeps me motivated to do what i want!) and she is kind of my inspiration on this blog.
so below you will find some fashion items that i picked up, just for your enjoyment, who knows maybe you will like something you see.
I am sorry boys, this one is not for you! :) (next time)
Lady Gaga said it best:
Ohhh Ohhh
La La La
We Love Designer
I am, I'm too fabu-lous
I'm so fierce that it's so nuts
I live, to be model thin
Dress me, I'm your manne-quin
J'adore Vivienne, La Vie et Moi
Gucci, Fendi, et Prada. Valentino, Armani too.
Merde I love them Jimmy Choo
Fashion put it all on me
Don't you want to see these clothes on me
Fashion put it all on me
I am anyone you want me to be (2x)
Ohhhh Ohhhhh
La La La
We love designer
I need, some new stile-ttos
Can't walk, down the street in those
You are, who you wear it's true
A girl's just as hot as the shoes she choose
J'adore Weitzman, La Vie et Moi
Louis, Dolce Gabbana, Alexander McQueen, eh oh.
Merde I love those Minolo
Fashion put it all on me
Don't you want to see these clothes on me
Fashion put it all on me
I am anyone you want me to be (2x)
Ohhhh Ohhhhh
La La La
We Love Designer
Loves it! xx
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